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Shouldn’t you go to prison at least once before you die? (8)

“Come and sit down.”

I tapped the spot next to me with my palm. Like a well-behaved child, Merson came up to me without saying anything and settled down, turning his upper body to look at me. I faced him with one leg fully resting on the bed.

“Can you win if you fight the heavenly deity?”

It was a childish question, but it was also a question that I had to ask him. It’s just speculation, but if it’s true that if the Saint intervenes in this, a face-to-face encounter with the heavenly deity is inevitable.

Judging from the experience of what happened in the Saint’s room the other day, it seems that the heavenly deity would surely run rampant like a madman for the Saint.

“Of course.”

“Can you not get hurt?”

Merson, knowing what answer I was looking for, paused. The heavenly deity is not just some common bully on the street, so how can Merson not get hurt when the heavenly deity decides to fight? My question itself was ridiculous.

“I’ll do it enough not to make you worry.”

What? The way he spoke was so casual that it was almost like saying, ‘I’ll take care of the trash for today.’ I rubbed my forehead and withdrew the question I had just asked.

“No. First of all, let’s just think about returning safely to Sezaine.”

My true intention was to avoid friction with the Saint as much as possible. It’s not because I’m scared or afraid, it’s because it’s better not to make bad relationships. Thinking about the future. No matter what, the small thread through which I could return to Korea was entangled in the Saint.

Suddenly, it seemed as if the Saint’s cry that I had heard last time was heard again.

[“You lied to me, Erina Holden…… ! You said you don’t love Kayle. What is this now?!”]

Come to think of it, she often said that in front of the heavenly deity. The heavenly deity’s heart is about to break. It was clear to anyone that those words came from a woman blinded by jealousy.

And I really lied.

[“I don’t love Kayle. No, I can’t.”]

I meant it at the time, but seeing that my heart didn’t cool even after he regained his memory, I must have been lying.

Knowing this, I was worried about how long until the Saint would run wild again. If I wasn’t in a position where I had to seek help from the Saint, I’d just have to stop caring about the Saint. It’s my miserable condition.

“Do you have a lot of worries?”

After being silent for a while because I was lost in my thoughts, Merson asked me anxiously while holding my hand.

“Merson, the Saint…….”

As soon as he heard the word ‘Saint’, his eyes sank. My body trembled at the sight of his eyes, which had turned dark red. I wonder if I have made a mistake. But even that was short-lived, Merson asked, kindly returning to his original soft light.

“Why?”

Merson’s hard expression, which I had seen for a moment, disappeared into thin air. It was so neat that I wondered if it was an illusion.

“Is her personality like that? She seems greedy, and she is very jealous. It feels a bit different on the outside and inside. Did she throw away all of her personality because you and the heavenly deity raised her?”

Pfft. He lowered his head and let out a laugh.

“To put the name of a Saint into shame, the first thing Bella wished for after ascending to heaven was the death of her parents.”

“…….”

“It’s not that I did anything wrong with her education. So, if you’re asking because you’re worried about that child’s education, you can relax. Because I have confidence I did well. There are many demons in charge of childcare in the Demon Realm…….”

“No, that’s not why I asked.”

I hurriedly shut Merson’s mouth shut. The conversation almost went to the mountain very naturally. He mumbled things more incomprehensibly, but it was crushed under the palm of my hand and disappeared.

“Puha, isn’t that why you asked?”

“That’s enough. Let’s not talk.”

Obviously, she is a completely different character from the Saint in the novel I read. In the novel, the Saint would not just let go of an animal with an injured leg and took care of it wholeheartedly, or went to a poor village with an epidemic and cared for them for days and nights.

However, when she was nominated as a Saint and ascended to heaven, the first thing she wished for was the death of someone, and that of her parents. Nothing matches.

Was she abused when she was younger?

Even so, she wouldn’t be that petty. Usually in such cases, wouldn’t it be the relief of being free from her parents and the thought of wanting to eat something delicious and relax?

It was unreasonable to understand the Saint’s heart at that time because I had never experienced it. Yes, what can I say? I brushed off my useless worries soon.

“I want a daughter.”

Merson looked at my face and his eyes lit up. Are you still talking about that?

“Little Erina, just like Erina.”

He picked up a little bundle of my hair and ran his fingers through it slowly, as if counting each strand.

I had never thought of anything like a child, but a small thump rang out. It wasn’t because I was excited about starting a family, but because Merson’s face was full of happiness as he thought about the future with me. The world he painted was like a beautiful garden full of colorful flowers.

“Let’s just have one child. I don’t want Erina’s love to leave me too much.”

“…….”

But I can’t agree with the future he imagines. It felt like tens of thousands of thorns were sprouting from under my feet. Like I was chained so that I could neither retreat nor approach.

“Merson.”

I called him, pretending that nothing was wrong as much as possible. To hear what I couldn’t bring out, what I absolutely need to know.

“Am I your companion?”

“Undeniably.”

I break out in a cold sweat at his resolute words.

“… Can you cancel that?”

Merson’s answer, which had been popping out so far, suddenly cut off. I turned my head away from meeting his eyes. Saliva was forming in my mouth, but even the sound of swallowing was so loud that I couldn’t bear to let it go, lest my nervousness be noticed.

“I can’t.”

A heavy answer.

“Oh really? I was just asking because I was curious!”

It seemed like I shouldn’t dig any further. I responded more cheerfully and laughed it off. But I still couldn’t look at Merson.

“There is no way.”

“Yes, yes.”

“I can’t do anything like cancel it.”

“Yes, I get it.”

“Erina is my forever companion.”

“I got it.”

“…….”

Merson repeated the same words over and over again, making my silence just laughable. As if that wasn’t enough, I grabbed his chin and turned it to look at me.

“You can stop talking. I just asked because I was really curious.”

I touched the wrong thing. A cold, expressionless expression awaited me.

Gulp-

My stagnant saliva is swallowed spontaneously. Can you stop looking at me so scarily?

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